I am so pissed off.
I hate false appearances. Anything that is not genuine kills me. You think you know someone.
Take my sister for example. She drives me crazy because she's super defensive and secretive. Always in her room and she won't tell me or anyone in our family about her personal life.
I've always been an advocate against drug use because it's the main reason people seem to use it is to give of a certain image that describes what is cool and it is really just shallow.
I have thought this and never drank until my Prom night. I actually did it because I wanted to, I did not feel any pressure from my friends or anything.
My sister has complained about her friends that drink who think they're super cool because they took a shot one night by themselves.
I was just absolutely pissed today when I found out that my sister drinks and has smoked.
I was just like "REALLY?" Like I had no idea because she always seems to complain about people who do that and I don't know. She's my little sister. I am 18 going into college and she just turned 16.
It's hard for me to imagine her smoking or her wanting to smoke.
Around the family she is jokey but she is mostly grumpy and we all agree she has an attitude problem.
I seriously hate her.
Like she won't ever open up to me because she is full of stupid Leo pride and she is afraid I am going to offend her because she is so sensitive. Like anything little thing I say to her upsets her.
Grow up. I mean I didn't act like that when I was 16. Maybe when I was 13.
I just she is some problem. She doesn't eat. She's rapidly losing weight. She is quitting her activities. I just cannot put up with someone who doesn't want to interact with me.
I am mostly mad because she didn't tell me at all. I mean I know she's not supposed to tell me. But I hate how it's like we're not even sisters.
I want a real sister who treats me right and loves me. I can be a little harsh but it's better to be honest than lie all the time.
I try to help her out all the time with school. I do her little favors and I usually always accommodate her. She does little in return.
She is just so vain and self absorbed with her image. She apparently is super social and outgoing yet also unsure of herself.
I am just so depressed about my relationship with her. I want a sister who looks up to me and treats me with respect. I am two years older than her. She is just a spoiled brat who calls me retarded and makes fun of me all the time.
The reason I like those little Nicaraguan sisters better is because they know how to respect their older sister and they don't shut her off every time she opens up because they respect what she has to say.
I always listen to my sister. I don't tell her to shut up mid sentence. Or that I don't care what she has to say. That is just so rude and I do care. I think it's important for people to share their thoughts and feelings.
I'm literally just some fucking clown to her.
I just feel so lonely. Like all I want is the unconditional love of a sister that is mutual and apparent. Like I feel like those little Nicaraguan children are my sisters. I love them so much and they definitely reciprocate the feelings and I have never felt happier.
I just hate how she always puts me down and mocks me. It's like she's getting revenge because the roles were reversed when I was younger.
I want to get back at her. I just don't want to talk to her or see her or have fun with her. It's hard though. I want to show her that it's not ok. I'm already emotionally unstable with my social relations with others. I don't need it from my own sister.
I just want to know who she really is. I don't even know her.
I hope my roommate doesn't hate me and that she could almost be like a sister to me. And trust me. and share things with me.
What are you most insecure about?
My physical appearance
What do you think is your best feature?
My positive and inspiring personality
What do you think is your worst feature?
My judgmental mind and over-analytical mind
Are you self-confident? Why or why not?
I am and I am not. I have confidence in my abilities at times, there are many things I know and can do. Yet I have extreme lows where I feel like shit and feel worthless. I value the opinions of others too much; I am socially dependent.
How would you describe your looks?
stocky, dirty blonde hair, muscular, busty, blue eyes, yellowy skin, my hair is wavyish. short.
How would you describe your personality?
impulsive, loud, enthusiastic, creative, fun, warm, talkative, easy-going, yet at the same time critical and judgmental. Relaxed, laughable. Fun, friendly.
Are you in love? If not, have you ever been in love?
"I'm not in love... I'm not in loveeeee. We are not in love!" I've never been in love. Only in obsession. I do not know if I believe in it.
What do you look for in a guy?
Funny, shy, comfort, easy-going, accepting, opinionated, passionate yet not over expressive in his feelings for me, authenticity, loyalty
What is one thing that you find adorable when guys do it?
Act awkward, say subtle hilarious things
What is your biggest fear?
Being alone with my dangerous thoughts
What is something you're excited for?
Going on a date with a person/ taking my roommate to this really good mexican restaurant.
What is something that you're obsessed with right now?
My roommate's friends and Kevin Spacey.
What is your favourite beauty product?
How would you describe your fashion style?
grandma/comfy meets masculine occasional rocker
What is your favourite piece of clothing you own?
My oxfords!! Or my denim button down.
What is a piece of clothing you want to buy?
lace up boots
Currently? Either "Air War" by Crystal Castles, "Amenany" by Purity Ring and "Foreground" by Grizzly Bear.
Crystal Castles, Beach House, Grizzly Bear, Radiohead, Purity Ring
Too many!! Requiem for a Dream, 12 Monkeys, Donnie Darko, The Cat Returns, The Last Unicorn.
KEVIN SPACEY. HANDS DOWN. NO QUESTION.
None? Ummmm... If I had to choose... I guess Kristen Wiig or Rachel McAdams.
AARON PAUL. OR KEVIN SPACEY IF THAT EVEN CAN COUNT.
The Catcher in the Rye, forever and ever!
Anteater? Giraffe? Zebra. There's so many good ones!